Depression Periodically awful depression from the fact that my child …

Depression Periodically awful depression from the fact that my child is growing so fast. I waited for her and time flies so quickly... I haven't had time to enjoy it. Now yes, she's more interesting, she needs to be considered, touched, smiled at, giggled with. Mentally I understand that you need to enjoy every day. But somehow I live in the past. How can I deal with this? Or will it pass by itself? I can't look at archival photos, newborns, even other children's babies, immediately a lump in my throat. I feel like I missed all three months of my child's life. I don't remember her as a