While I still remember everything I want to share my impressions after...

While I still remember everything I want to share my impressions after the happiness that fell on me! I'm a Mom now! ??? To be honest, I'm not one of those moms who felt an instant bond with the baby; of course I had tears of joy but more because I realized I was losing my freedom ? (I'm exaggerating, of course). I sometimes talked to my belly (but what I wanted most was for Abzik to pray to this belly ?) — I'm doing it for him, ? I didn't read mommy books, I didn't listen to classical music. I just played videos on YouTube, and I liked to fall asleep to them ?. Then I figured I'd learn everything for real when I gave birth ?. Overall the pregnancy was for me like an exciting adventure, something new and nothing more; I decided to live in the here and now ? I just enjoyed my cute little belly and left thoughts about the baby for the moment he appeared (and that was the right call ☺️). By the way, the X moment! It happened, you know how ? I went to the hospital myself — I went with an unclear feeling, not fully realizing what was happening, but most importantly — without fear. (I already wrote about that day so I won't go into much detail here ?). In the end I'm a Mom. They put the baby on my chest; I still didn't fully realize what was happening. And I didn't have movie-style tears of joy — I just thanked my midwives, kept saying thank you, thank you and smiled ?. We lay with my son for two hours side by side — he on my belly — and we looked at each other for a long time. My phone was blowing up with calls; by then everyone already knew I had given birth, ?? but I really didn't care about the phone; I was enjoying the moment and gently hugging my little son. The feelings were strange ? I didn't know how to react, my feelings were a bit numb ??‍♀️. That night I practically didn't sleep, watching my son while he sweetly snored; an explosion of emotions was happening in my head ? I even teared up over him that night (apparently my brain only realized what happened at night). I felt sorry for myself like, 'I gave birth, I went through all that, I'm great' ?. Images of everything that happened in the delivery room kept replaying in my head ?. In the morning there was the doctors' round, they called us to give the vaccination ? And my heart skipped ? when I saw the syringe; I wanted to grab my baby and run as far as I could ?! Protect him from everyone! Then we went to the ward and I again lay there looking at him, ?. He smiled so sweetly in his sleep and I fell in love.... I've never been this in love before. ? #Ребенокрожденныйвкарантин??☺️ #материнскоечувство?