While I still remember everything I want to share my impressions after...

While I still remember everything I want to share my impressions after the happiness that fell on me! I'm a Mom now! 🤱🏻😍 To be honest, I'm not one of those moms who felt an instant bond with the baby; of course I had tears of joy but more because I realized I was losing my freedom 😅 (I'm exaggerating, of course). I sometimes talked to my belly (but what I wanted most was for Abzik to pray to this belly 😅) — I'm doing it for him, 🙈 I didn't read mommy books, I didn't listen to classical music. I just played videos on YouTube, and I liked to fall asleep to them 😂. Then I figured I'd learn everything for real when I gave birth 😊. Overall the pregnancy was for me like an exciting adventure, something new and nothing more; I decided to live in the here and now 😉 I just enjoyed my cute little belly and left thoughts about the baby for the moment he appeared (and that was the right call ☺️). By the way, the X moment! It happened, you know how 😜 I went to the hospital myself — I went with an unclear feeling, not fully realizing what was happening, but most importantly — without fear. (I already wrote about that day so I won't go into much detail here 😃). In the end I'm a Mom. They put the baby on my chest; I still didn't fully realize what was happening. And I didn't have movie-style tears of joy — I just thanked my midwives, kept saying thank you, thank you and smiled 😀. We lay with my son for two hours side by side — he on my belly — and we looked at each other for a long time. My phone was blowing up with calls; by then everyone already knew I had given birth, 🤱🏻 but I really didn't care about the phone; I was enjoying the moment and gently hugging my little son. The feelings were strange 😏 I didn't know how to react, my feelings were a bit numb 🤷🏽‍♀️. That night I practically didn't sleep, watching my son while he sweetly snored; an explosion of emotions was happening in my head 🤯 I even teared up over him that night (apparently my brain only realized what happened at night). I felt sorry for myself like, 'I gave birth, I went through all that, I'm great' 😅. Images of everything that happened in the delivery room kept replaying in my head 😬. In the morning there was the doctors' round, they called us to give the vaccination 🥴 And my heart skipped 💔 when I saw the syringe; I wanted to grab my baby and run as far as I could 👀! Protect him from everyone! Then we went to the ward and I again lay there looking at him, 😍. He smiled so sweetly in his sleep and I fell in love.... I've never been this in love before. 💗 #Ребенокрожденныйвкарантин💪🏽☺️ #материнскоечувство😜