Good evening! I had a premonition about another unsuccessful pregnancy…

Good evening! I had a premonition about another unsuccessful pregnancy. Yesterday I had an ultrasound and the doctor said that the pregnancy was ectopic but the fetus stopped developing. No heartbeat ? I was in despair from the ultrasound result. Yesterday I was urgently admitted to the hospital for a cleaning procedure after the ultrasound. I am in despair. It still seems like he lives inside me and is developing. I can't get over the fact that he's gone. Why does God give some people a bunch of children and they don't really need them, while others can't even carry one? Sorry if I complain, it hurts so much. I've been crying for two days