Okay... My first pregnancy ended with a miscarriage at about week nine…

Okay... My first pregnancy ended with a miscarriage at about week nine. I remember seeing blood on my pad, and I remember how suddenly my stomach hurt as soon as I saw it... I fled from the hospital when they brought me in by ambulance because they said my heart wasn't beating. The point is that everything is good now. But after every trip to the bathroom, I have to go number 40 times a day. I constantly look at the paper, is there any blood? Ugh, and this happens every time. Even bought white paper specifically. It seems like I can't get rid of this :(