Girls, hello everyone I'm on maternity leave. My daughter is one year …

Girls, hello everyone I'm on maternity leave. My daughter is one year old. Yesterday I found out about my second pregnancy. It turns out I have to stay home for another + - two years. I feel awful, like I'm falling behind everything and everyone. I was hoping that in a year and a half I would give my daughter to kindergarten and go back to work but it wasn't like that. I want a second child but also torture myself with the thought of not developing. I'm afraid that I will become uninteresting to my husband and to myself. I compare myself to other super moms who opened online stores, finished courses, learned remotely from someone, learned foreign languages and feel worthless. At home I try