I completely lost it, I'm sitting in the bathroom crying because the d…

I completely lost it, I'm sitting in the bathroom crying because the daughter is sleeping in the bedroom and hasn't slept for a long time, I haven't cried like this in ages, to say that there's some serious reason, it's not true. We dreamed of a child for three years, we went through two miscarriages and it seemed like happiness was finally here, but everything turned out like a mess, my husband cooled down, he stays at work more often (we have our own production, like a lot of work), in those rare moments when we're home, we live like neighbors, hello-see you later, eat something...but otherwise, on my phone, what's at home