Hello everyone! I want to share what's in my heart. Two years ago, I broke…

Hello everyone! I want to share what's in my heart. Two years ago, I broke up with my ex-partner. He started drinking, cheating, and even tried to kill me while drunk. I got very sick with kidney problems, ended up in the ICU four times, they pulled me back from the brink of death. While I was sick, my ex took our youngest son and daughter. I saw them in February that year, talked to them on the phone in July. There were lawsuits against him, although I am not an alcoholic or drug addict. Now I am married to a good guy, loves my eldest, we are expecting another baby. I feel bad towards the children, like I betrayed them. I'm afraid