I think I'm having postpartum depression, I don't even know. Right now…

I think I'm having postpartum depression, I don't even know. Right now, I don't want to talk to anyone, I just want to be alone, I cry often and am powerless, I really want to sleep. Yesterday, after feeding my baby, he had a little bit of nausea afterwards, and then I just cried for three hours sitting there. I live with my parents-in-law, my husband wakes up early to do chores, cooking, washing clothes, I can't cope with all this. In my head, only bad thoughts come, I just want to be alone, nothing pleases me. I often think that I can't handle the child, that I will become a good mother, but