Girls, a hemorrhoid bump the size of a bean, all blue. There's no blee…

Girls, a hemorrhoid bump the size of a bean, all blue. There's no bleeding, but the pain is unbearable even after going to the toilet for a small amount. The toilet is my nightmare. I'm applying Relif cream and taking 600mg of Flebopa daily. I started today, it's day two. Do you think it will go away? Have you ever experienced this? I'm scared of giving birth, have you had any experience with hemorrhoids during childbirth?