Girls, it's like my soul is screaming, have you ever been in a clinic …

Girls, it's like my soul is screaming, have you ever been in a clinic and they measure your cervix and it's short, but then when you go to the hospital they say it's long and everything's fine? I'm so tired of this, I don't even know how to act anymore, I'm almost always lying down, I don't even know if I'm doing it right.