Girls, today started pre-partum depression. I recently wanted to have …

Girls, today started pre-partum depression. I recently wanted to have a baby faster, and now I don't want to. Suddenly it hit me that my husband might turn away from me, there will be little time to surprise him. Can I even sit with the child all day in the apartment alone and just surprise him? Will I have time for cleaning and cooking? I understand that the fun was then when I was pregnant and could leave with my husband at any time, like to go fishing, to the store together, into the forest for mushrooms, or simply drive around together or just walk together. I am afraid that my husband will forget about me, that he won't pay attention to me. I don't want that