Hello everyone! Something is terribly scary to me, I don't know how to…

Hello everyone! Something is terribly scary to me, I don't know how to calm down... more precisely, it's exciting, it even shakes me up ? I'm going to see a gynecologist today after a month - maybe she will tell me something, and tomorrow there will be a second screening. I don't understand myself, am I crazy ? or what? How to calm down