Girls, about two weeks ago I started being afraid to get up at night t…

Girls, about two weeks ago I started being afraid to get up at night to feed the baby (well, anything can happen with my head ?) + there was probably a surge. Couldn't put her down until 12 o'clock. Decided to do joint sleep. We've been sleeping for two weeks now. My neck gets stiff, I wake up all the time during the night because she climbs on top of the pillow. Last night she was spinning all the time, looking for a breast. Gave her a pacifier. She took it in her sleep this time. And today I decided to put her in my bed at night. But without a breast and without a pacifier, she won't sleep. Gave her