Mommies! Are there any of you who have experienced vacuum suction (or …

Mommies! Are there any of you who have experienced vacuum suction (or even with forceps)? There are many stories about episiotomies, but I haven't seen much about instrumental ones... I would like to read stories about childbirth. Maybe it's a psychological need after childbirth. It has been more than two months since my birth, and my fear hasn't subsided... During labor, I couldn't let emotions run free because we couldn't relax on fear and lose time that wasn't there, and only cried as if the baby was born and I cried... Perhaps this is also due to the shock. Then my maternal life got busy, so I didn't have the opportunity to re-evaluate everything that happened