Girls, hello, those who have read my posts know that the child was sic…

Girls, hello, those who have read my posts know that the child was sick, and this all left such an emotional mark on me, now I'm very ashamed that I don't feed the baby ? The daughter doesn't really like drinking water, although we were told to drink plenty of water, the breasts could at least be attached more often ? Already as soon as I didn't give her a bottle, pacifiers, spoons, cups, syringes just nothing. It seems emotionally I've been depressed for a long time ? I often hear things like "I would not have fed him like that"