Girls. I'm writing for support. Calm me down. I can't find places. Aft…

Girls. I'm writing for support. Calm me down. I can't find places. After tomorrow's operation, my little one has surgery in his eyes. We remove polyps under general anesthesia. I'm scared as hell how much my face, both eyes immediately, anesthesia. I guess I understand that anesthesia will not be strong and the operation is not complicated at all, but before my eyes are scary pictures, I am winding myself up, so the child feels everything, that I am on the edge. I try to calm him down, but I am panicking myself. How do I get together and calm down? I'm afraid that in 30 minutes while the operation is going on, I'll completely go