Hello girls, our friends disappeared since the first child was born, I…

Hello girls, our friends disappeared since the first child was born, I didn't even worry about it, they left and that's okay, then there was a second child, some awkwardness started in family life (it probably creates a crack), and it's so bad that there is no one with whom you can talk and confide in, even with my sister I can't because I won't get anything useful or empathy (the same as talking to myself). It's just a dead end, I trapped myself in a corner of helplessness somehow ((I want communication of some kind)