Girls, hello!) My head is a mess and I have a ton of questions that I …

Girls, hello!) My head is a mess and I have a ton of questions that I can't find answers to ?, help me. Basically, due to neurological reasons, they don't want to accept me in my small town. They say we don't have narrow specialists, my history is bad, unsuccessful pregnancies. They scare me because they say anything could happen during childbirth. They send me through the portal to the regional center in Karaganda (350 km). They say either they will call for delivery or wait for their midwives. 1. Who was called by a midwife, how did it go, do they say it's twice as painful? 2. Since I'm going to give