Girls, I'm in such a state right now, nothing pleases me. I hate every…

Girls, I'm in such a state right now, nothing pleases me. I hate everyone, I'm angry at the whole world. There is no meaning or purpose ??‍♀️I can't understand myself, I just want to cry and that's it, even friends aren't there. My husband doesn't get it. And with my mom since childhood, things haven't been good. In general, I feel like nobody needs me ?I want to cry but I hold back so milk doesn't go bad ??‍♀️