Hello! Has anyone experienced postpartum depression? How did you cope…

Hello! Has anyone experienced postpartum depression? How did you cope? I'm kind of happy but also not really. I constantly want to cry but I hold it back so that others don't laugh. There's emptiness and pain in my soul, disappointment. Plus I've been at home with my mom for almost 40 days. But I want to go back to my husband's house. I feel like I'm out of place here. And plus the conditions aren't good, maybe because of this. My mom is looking after her well, she's doing okay, but something she does isn't right.