Girls, my close person died. I don't know how to stop crying, as soon …

Girls, my close person died. I don't know how to stop crying, as soon as I close my eyes, I hear his voice. Before this day, I really wanted to have a baby soon, and now I don't want to at all, I don't know what emotions I will experience... I thought that when I give birth, we would all be happy and celebrate, but now there is such grief in our family (I am scared to give birth during such a difficult time for the family, everyone in the family is grieving). It's very hard