Hey girls, it's been six months since I gave birth and I still wonder why…

Hey girls, it's been six months since I gave birth and I still wonder why I couldn't hold back my screams during contractions? ? I tried to take deep breaths but then started screaming like a banshee. It was so embarrassing asking for forgiveness. But somehow, after screaming, it felt easier, maybe? Although I always thought I wouldn't scream during contractions ? My friend just had a baby yesterday, but she says she didn't even cry from pain, let alone anything else. And I'm thinking, "Oh my god, midwives were yelling at me about my screams!" But I couldn't do anything with myself, I couldn't even think of what to do! Did anyone else give