Hey you asshole)) It started really bad, we're throwing up, we're not …

Hey you asshole)) It started really bad, we're throwing up, we're not throwing up(( weakness, head spinning. I don't want to do anything, straight depression and tears (( yesterday I struggled with lactostasis, I seemed to be milking it until relief, but still everything got jammed, swollen, my chest puffed up, temperature, shaking, my son was crawling and crawling hugging me, massaging didn't help, it wouldn't come out, in the end I snapped at my son, yelled at him, then at my husband, it hit them hard, we ran out for a walk right after work, and I lay there crying, that such a bitch and terrible mother, that I'm not ready