I really want an ultrasound at home ? to watch my little one online an…

I really want an ultrasound at home ? to watch my little one online and know everything is okay... I'm already tired of what lies across, but yesterday there were such active kicks, then silence, I almost went crazy, the shape of my belly changed (when it was straight round, now triangular forward) and somehow the character of the movements also changed? My husband scolds me to calm down, but I can't... Do your kids also nerve-wracking until birth?