Girls, am I alone like this? I'm constantly trying to prevent my baby …

Girls, am I alone like this? I'm constantly trying to prevent my baby from being born with disabilities, with some kind of deviations. I can't get myself to feel positive emotions((( there's always some nonsense in my head. Especially after these tests, I got myself worked up, I searched online even more about my own head.... there are just horrors written there.