Girls good night ? I really want to feed my baby from the breast with …

Girls good night ? I really want to feed my baby from the breast with pleasure. But for now it's not possible. Who had problems with nipples? My nipples are small, I barely got my son. I used silicone pads for a couple of days. Everything cracked. I constantly smear pureload. But damn, such an impression doesn't heal ? Awful pain while breastfeeding. Now I give him breast without pads. Maybe someone can recommend some kind of quick treatment. I would be very grateful ?