Girls, hello everyone. I can't stand it anymore. Can anyone suggest so…

Girls, hello everyone. I can't stand it anymore. Can anyone suggest something? It's been three months since childbirth, and I still have pain from the tear (it ripped from the left side up to the clitoris). In the evening, I can't sit because it hurts like someone hit me there. For some time everything was okay. Now it's reached the point that I smear painkiller cream twice a day and want to switch to pills. There's no strength left to endure, can you tell me how long it will continue to hurt? Maybe you can give advice? The gynecologist said it might hurt for a year, two, or even 10 years, like nothing can be done about